A reason for my disappearance recently was due to my total concentration to pass the TP test.  As you know going through the whole lessons and stuff is not easy.  Needless to say the TP test.  This time round I too had a hard time, and judging that my PDI ( private driving instructor) is not that comprehensive and always

Taking it over again was not easy.   This time round it was SSDC, the driving centre is situated at the industrial estate in Woodlands.  Most students will take the shuttle bus from Admiralty MRT down to the location.

The usual warm up session sort of prepared me for the test.  Inside the circuit, I had confident that I should be able to make it this time, everything seemed good.  After parking the car, I made my way to the waiting area before the tester come to fetch me.   So there I was waiting, it was indeed very scary just sitting there.  This time round my tester looked fierce, I was like maybe I will have not chance to pass.  But I braced myself and thought, I should just give it a shot. Although confidence is not so strong but never try never know.  So I plucked up my courage and followed him out.  The testing system now is such that if you accumulate more than 20 points in the circuit, you will not be able to go out of the driving centre, needless to say meaning fail.

We did the reverse parking first, all seemed well, and moving on to the directional change.  This time, while moving out, guess my nervousness got the better of me and it stroke the kerb.  Confidence level suddenly dropped to the lowest. But I kept telling myself, do not worry I must at least try and see.  So I continued on, after the S drive and the zig zag crossing, things seemed to be okay, for once I tot, hey it should be safe to go on the roads.  Then to the parallel parking, as I was moving out, I stroke the kerb again. This was devastating was it meant 20 points.  The tester was cold and unforgiving, feeling was like cannot wait to see you drown.  I was told to turn back to the waiting area.  Feeling very low and burning, I slowly drove back. Sadness crowded me and I thought, I really do not deserve this, I already gotten the licence, why did I let it slip off my hands just like that?  All because of one night of drink driving.  Was it worth the while?   It was definitely not, the sadness and depression overcame me and I was so sad.

But I felt , it was probably not the time to get sulking and began to book for the next test session, I went online and got a slot which was one month away, the first thing that came to mind was how many more months do I need to waste and how much more money to spend.  Already spent like near to 2K on these practices and stuff, I was really worried.  I also thought maybe after the second time if I filed, I would probably go to the school and re learn everything.

Thus this first test ended with a sour note.